I am excited to be having lunch with my daughter Addie today. I am a little scared too, because I am going to share this with her. What if she does not understand, or even care? What if she can't forgive me? In many ways she is my mother, will she be angry about that? When my adopted mother died, Addie really took over many of her chores with me. I always thought it was cute when Addie wouldn't let me pick up a knife for instance.

But what effects have this had on Addie? I have always felt she parented her mother (a Borderline Personality), and was blind to the notion that she parented me also. I feel so guilty to have laid such a heavy burden on such a small child.

Will she forgive me? And if she does, will she help me grow up now like I tried to do with her? She has become wise beyond her years, and she also knows a whole lot about childhood. So I am excited, and scared all at once.